Week 65 - Sitting in the Power

I See Me

I manage my fear. I manage PTSD from years of fear. I walk through fear and there is still more. An inside voice feeds me worries that build into mountains and I become immobilized. I am unsafe with myself.

Sitting in silence has helped me uncover this hidden presence always reminding me. Life is hard when I am unsafe. Nothing feels doable. Nothing feels manageable. I have uncovered limitation after limitation as I slow down and listen.

The difference between my inner Soul voice and my inside voice is subtle but palpable. My Soul voice is filled with love, respect, and incredible patience. My inside voice speaks fear.

Walls have been built over my lifetime, and I face them one by one. It is not easy. No one said it would be, but the truth is, I am tired of living a compromised life. It has taken me over 70 years to come to this point. It is not an end but a beginning.

Stability is a helpful aspect in life. Every human deserves stability, with inherent worth and dignity. We deserve to take up space, have a voice and most of all, experience love we receive from the inside and from those we trust on the outside. We also practice giving to others with the love we feel within.

So many people suffer from their belief they do not deserve to be loved. So many people have bought the message that they don’t count. Wounded people pass on their wounds to others in the name of family. Wounded cultures pass on its wound traditions to others. Today I stand up and say enough! I deserve better.

Today’s topic is about our worth, our dignity and our right to experience love from within and without. We have the right to reparent ourselves to replace old wounds received.  We put down old stories because we deserve better.

We have had some powerful sessions over the past few weeks and it is because of you. Each of you has allowed yourself to trust this time together. You lean into the power of love. You use your voice and you join in with the conversation, with the immense power of community.

You feel the power of our community because you allow this power of love into your life.

This is what love is, and we know it when we feel it. We build our inner reservoirs with this love and draw from it when we need it, and gift it when we can. This give and take is the power of harmony.

By practicing this awareness, I find myself seesawing through my day, feeling the giving and taking, sidestepping the negative and soaking up the positive. I deserve this discernment. I am worth it. So are you.

Each of us chooses to let it in. Yes, discernment is so important. Love is out there. It is hard to trust, but leaning into what we already have helps us lean in to other opportunities to read the love, feel the love, see the love, be the love. We open ourselves because we recognize what real love is.

So, the next time you are in front of a mirror, take a moment, look into your eyes. Imagine the faces, names and essences of our community and feel love. Remember you are loved. You are love. You participate in love. You are love. Catch your own eye and remind yourself you are loved. You are worth the effort. You are worth the reminder. Say “I love you to yourself” and feel the love that you witness on Saturdays with this community.