Big Love I made the decision to take the word “frustrated” out of my language. Frustrated feels hopeless, and I don’t want to feel hopeless in my inside or outside world. Hope helps me feel better. Hope gives me a reason to wake up in the morning, even on mornings when I have had very little sleep. Hope holds creativity and the good smell of something I just baked, and finding order in a chaotic room. Instead, I am using the word “challenged.” To be challenged means I will figure out a way to...

LIFE IS NOT MY FAULT! I made the hard decision to begin trauma-based therapy four weeks ago. The pot is stirred and life feels like a field of land mines. I am okay, if I take time to remember to grant myself space to recover after sessions and remember one moment at a time. I am accountable to my decisions and take action for change. I have had enough physical pain in my life that I claimed “enough”. Life pissed me off a long time ago and I got angry but didn’t know what to do with my anger....

Surrendering It takes a lot of courage to live in this world. We walk this earth together. There is a reason why we suffer. There is a reason why we experience triggers. There is a reason why we fear. There is a reason why we love. There is a reason why we struggle. There is a reason why we doubt. There is a reason why we witness suffering There is a reason why we lose ourselves. Our souls seek wholeness with our humanness And what better way to seek this merger is through experience. We are...