Week 98 - Sitting in the Power

THE DOORWAY IS THE MOMENT OF NOW

There is such rampant fear in the world

so easily found just by visiting the internet

or listening to the news or

witnessing people struggle.

I hold on to my inner peace.

I don’t try to hold on…I do

to remain impartial on the outside

as I feel Iron walls surrounding my heart,

ten-foot poles guarding my smile.

I stand with the struggle

and the presence as I listen

to a woman with guitar in hand

singing her new song and sharing

from her heart the light she sees.

A day can be like a pendulum

swinging from one extreme to another

and I am the tender of my garden

within.

The world is full of dichotomies

pulling me in one direction and then another

pushing boundaries and clanging loudly

enticing with bling and noise.

Life pushes and pulls me.

I have found clarity

with my internal boundaries

And still find it exhausting living in this world

with the fear and hate

hanging on people’s outsides

for all to see and hear

It feels like a hot summer day

with oppressive heat blowing in my face

pushing me and intruding

on my inner home

Through therapy I have calmed

my terrified child

and land solidly in the adult

within who comforts me.

I imagine myself in a garden of

beautiful flowers surrounded by

real people doing good, sharing love.

These are my values.

I am clear on where I want to spend my time.

I am clear on what I believe.

I am clear on my boundaries

of these outside forces.

I nurture and grow my adult within.

I comfort and guide my child within.

My home I’ve built from bricks of experience

and truth with mortar of love and light

The doorway is the moment of now.

I seek help when I am lost.

Therapy is available.

Guidance is there.

All I have to do is believe.

Every sentient being deserves

comfort and care.

I see it in homing pigeons

who leave their secure nest

only to return to their comfort and care.

Therapy helps me find my center.

Help is available if we free ourselves

of the judgments we hold for

what we deserve.

We deserve to be home within

holding the doorway to now and

the presence of heart to

circle back into our inner garden.

We are living in extremes

and extremes call for fierce measures

that align us with our truth.

Align us with our convictions

All we have to do is

believe we deserve it.