Week 62 - Sitting in the Power

Play

It is time to play.

Find wonder in my life.

Life is harsh, painful and unpleasant.

and yet, I see moments when I could

lighten up and experience joy.

Whether it is for five minutes or a half an hour,

Creating play will lift my heart.

Lifting my heart and ease the ache

about life.

I hold the reins of my imagination.

How I use my mind helps me ease my insides

and remember past times on the beach

with my granddaughter

She had purple hair and a twinkle in her blue eyes

Colorful radiant granddaughter

She said she was bored and I said come here a minute

And then described what I was feeling

When I breathe in the ocean air, the smell

Is tickling the hairs in my nostrils.

Nostrils? She asks not hearing that word much.

I touched my fingers to my nose holes.

She laughed. I went on.

When I breathe in, my lungs are

Dancing back and forth so happy

To be out here with you.

I got up off the sand and we moved

To the sand pile she was creating

And we both went to work.

Happiness!

The world around me disappeared and

It was perfection to spend time in an environment

Surrounded by people I love

backdropped by rhythmic sounds of the ocean.

I let myself go. Worries flitted away on the wind

Aches and pains in my body disappeared

As my toes were tickled by the grains of sand

And my mind let go of time.

Over the last few weeks

I denied the desire and call of the beach

Because my mind kept constructing obstructions

Of my wanting pleasure.

First, it’s the sun will hurt me

So recent my fascial scar still hurts

Then it’s the drive is too long

And the world is not safe.

And no one wants to go with me

And I won’t have the time

And the traffic will be too bad

Excuses dismantling desire after desire.

My mind doesn’t want me to relax.

My mind doesn’t want me to let go.

My mind doesn’t want me to smile

If I stay still, I’ll be safe.

My heart wants me to find ease.

My heart wants me to loosen up.

My heart wants me to remember

The incredible joy.

And my mind is on guard watching

For the enemy of hurt

A hardened habit guarding me

As a sentinel standing at attention

I deserve play

I deserve to smile

And feel free

I feel the power of wonder.