Self-Abandonment National holidays are always hard because of memories of what was not possible or can no longer be. Families gather. Celebrations. Partying. I have to approach every day with self-care, and holidays are no different. I reached the core of my pain this week, my core named self-abandonment. I have been scrutinizing self-abandonment recognizing it as the black hole I fall into time and time again. I give in to the strong impulses of body memories and the insa