During the most traumatic event of my life, I miraculously found stillness in the turbulence of the surrounding violence I was subjected to.

I’m humbled by the innate intelligence of my physical body and my spiritual body. So, I wasn’t surprised when the spasms started in my back.

I’ve wanted something all my life. To be heard, to feel loved, to have friends, to belong. But there was always something missing.

No matter what position I put myself in, what positive change I make, what intention I make, what activity I do, I come back to uncertainty.

I’ve learned how important it is to honor my needs, not deny them. Now I bow to the wisdom of my vessel and honor the inner alarms.

Training my brain to stay in the moment is a day-by-day process. One little affirmation can change the direction of my thoughts.

I’ve been scared away by life again. Two steps forward, one step back. Why does my humanness have to interfere with my happiness?

Expectations take me out of the moment and places me smack dab in the middle of stress. Mindfulness means staying aware. I choose awareness.

I learned as a child if my clothes catch on fire to stop, drop and roll. Metaphorically, stop, drop and roll is not far off from Covid news.

We can choose to focus on fear and predict dire outcomes. Or we can focus on our breath and listen. Healing happens when you do the work.

Maybe it’s a habit of worry. Maybe it’s my way of reminding myself I’m not in control. Daily I let go and bring in gentleness.

With gratitude held in the palm of my hand, I feel the warmth of my heart. I am grounded in this healing. I welcome my wisdom.

Today is a day of waiting. Today I connect with my heart and believe there is a greater purpose afoot.

I'm like a catcher. I choose what to accept or deny by gesturing with signals. The pitcher is life with its various fast & slow pitches.

I have been cultivating my true self for decades, peeling away the pain and confusion, the layers of thick crusty protection that helped me.

I stand as one in my world. My truth lies within my walls. I lead by my own example. My heart pointing the way.

I want to be in the Now. But I don’t want to again be in that “mush” state like when I was on anti-depressants. That is not the Now I want.