Week 49 - Sitting in the Power

Inside Out vs Outside In

I remember buying frozen concentrated orange juice at the store. A cylinder of iced orange juice, all to be mixed with water to create a refreshing drink that replenishes thirst for life.

My life feels like a frozen concentrated cylinder of juice. Currently, time seems sped up. Life experiences land like a rocket ship, concentrated into intensity, as I sort out the chaos into order and make ease out of the mess.

Though I am still acclimating to the intensity, I have changed. I am standing on new ground, with a new awareness, witnessing my new path. My body is different. My mind is different. My heart is different.  Yet I am still the same me.

I still am triggered by my past seeking self-compassion for the pain and heartache.

I practice living from the inside out instead of the outside in. This practice of awareness pulls me back to center, back to comfort, back to focus.

Living from the outside in catapults me into a reaction to the chaos of my past, the cacophony of the present and the worries of the future. I am 72 years old and am still learning to live from the inside out.

Surrendering is not about the loss of a loved one. Surrendering is not about the daily struggle of humanity. Surrendering is not being a doormat.

Surrendering is about prayer and practice. Surrendering is about listening in silence.  Surrendering is letting go of the pursuit to understand everything. Surrendering is about acceptance. Surrendering is inquiring with honesty and honoring needs. Surrendering is an inside job.

Let it Go (Danna Faulds)

Let go of the ways you thought life would unfold:

the holding of plans or dreams or expectations –

Let it all go.

Save your strength to swim with the tide.

The choice to fight what is here before you now will

only result in struggle, fear, and desperate attempts

to flee from the very energy you long for.

Let go.

Let it all go and flow with the grace that washes

through your days whether you received it gently

or with all your quills raised to defend against invaders.

Take this on faith; the mind may never find the

explanations that it seeks, but you will move forward

nonetheless.

Let go, and the wave’s crest will carry

you to unknown shores, beyond your wildest dreams

or destinations.

Let it all go and find the place of

rest and peace, and certain transformation.